I'm still in number 1 spot

Jashley were barely 6 months old then when I decided to work again. I wanted sana to wait for her to turn 1 year old before I go back working so we can have more bonding times pa, but masyado na malaki ang monthly house expenses namin. Hubby can provide naman, he can cover for our daily basic necessities. and I am very thankful to God that I have a responsible Hubby, but I admit we're still kinukulang, we can't have any kind of luho, and most importantly we're not able to save for the future. So when I found out that the previous company where I worked, before I go to singapore is currently hiring, I contacted the manager and asked if I can apply, he requested for my updated CV, the next day after I submitted it, I receive agad the Job Offer letter, I signed it and thats it, in 2 weeks time I'm back into the corporate world. 

I felt both happiness and sadness at the same time. I am happy because I actually missed my job, my profession, and of course I will be able to help Hubby na with our expenses. But that means I have to leave Jashley to Mama everyday. No more 24/7 hours of play, hugging and kissing. We only have mornings before I leave for work, at night and during weekeends for that. And what actually scared me is the thought that she might get more closer to her Lola (MIL) than to me, don't get me wrong I love my MIL and very thankful that she is willing to take care of Jashley so I am able to continue my profession. But of course being a mom, as much as possible I want to be the first in my daughters heart, me and her daddy, kaso paano nga yun kung both of us is working. 
Anyways here's our set up, during weekends we made sure that Jashley is with us, kami ni Hubby ang nag-aalaga. As much as possible my in-laws won't take her from us during these days so we can have some quality time with her. Si Jashley naman whenever we're home she doesn't want to come to either Mama or Papa, she wants only me & her Daddy. But nowadays kahit kay Daddy ayaw nya din paminsan, I always tease Daddy that number 2 lang siya sa puso ni Jashley ako padin ang number 1, hehe. Whenever I was around kasi, she didn’t wanna be washed, changed or carried by anyone else except me, minsan nga lalapitan lang nila tatakbo na sakin akala nya siguro kukunin siya. If bigla ako mawala sa paningin nya, sisigaw na yan ng "Mommy...Mommy...Mommy" until she saw me again. When someone is taking her from me, she will hug me tightly so no one can get her from me. Buti nga recently when I really need to excuse myself from her to be able do something, I will just tell her "Mommy will need to go to the toilet" and she will let me go na. 

In mornings naman, di naman siya humahabol when I leave for work, I always explain kasi sa kanya na Mommy is going to office. Kasama sila ni Mama tuwing hinahatid ako ni Papa (FIL) sa sakayan ng bus. When you ask her "Where Mommy will ride?" she will reply "Bus" then ask "going to?" she will answer "Office". While inside the tricycle, we will be exchanging a lot of bye-byes, kisses, i love yous, and after I alight she will send me flying kisses, then I will let them go home na, I don't want to let her stay longer dun kasi masyadong mausok since its a highway. And I tell you that it is always the sad part of my day, I also see on my baby's eyes that she's sad too, she will just stare at me as if telling me na "iiwan mo nanaman ako" habang lumalayo sila. 
On the other hand according to Mama, during the day when she knows that her Daddy and I are not home, si Mama  naman ang ayaw nya hiwalayan, Mama was able to work lang daw when Jashley is sleeping or if Papa will play with her, kasi that's the time lang na sasama si Jashley kay Papa if they will play, kaso madalas hinihika si Papa after they played kasi harutan pala ang trip ng bata. 
At night, we usually arrive around 8:30 or 9:00 pm, she's still awake pa naman most of the time, upon seeing me and her daddy, she will run towards us tuwang tuwa. She will make kalkal my bag to find a pasalubong. Then will pull me through the back door while saying "tamon...house" meaning come on, let go to our house. And then ayun, no pansin nanaman sa kanya ang Mama at Papa until I leave again for work. 

Before when she was in "nangingilala" stage already she doesn't want to be carried by anyone except Me, Daddy, Mama & Papa. When she turns 1 year old she wanted Me and Mama mostly. Then naging Me and his Daddy whenever we're around. Pero ngayon etsapuwera na talaga sila lahat if I'm around. Sabi ko nga kay Daddy mukang kaagaw pa nya si Mama sa number 2 spot kay Jashley, hahaha.
Anyway Mommies, especially working Moms like me, though we can't be with our babies 24/7, I know no one can replace us in their tiny hearts.

Puyat moments

After I gave birth to Jashley, almost all of my Mommy friends would tell me that it will be the start of our sleepless nights. Apparently it is not the case with Jashley, I didn't have any problem with her during night time because she sleeps althrough out the night, though she wakes up early around 5am the same time that her daddy wakes up to prepare for his work. But during day time maximum na yung 30 mins of sleep for her, I already tried turning off the lights, blocked the sunlight coming through the windows, don't make any noise, but still she cannot sleep longer than 30 minutes. One time after I lulled her to sleep, I didn't put her down to see if she can sleep longer on my arms, guess what? she was able to sleep for 3 hours straight. Since that moment, during daytime I let her sleep on my arms so she can sleep longer. We do this everyday until she is aorund 5 months, finally she was able to sleep lying down na during daytime. On night time she still sleeps from 7pm to 6am the next day. I really didn't experiencd waking up in the middle of the night for any reason other than I have to feed her. After that we can both resume our sleep.

Of course its a different story whenever she's sick, worse when she have flu and congested nose. Because the only way she can sleep well is if I carry her and sleep while on sitting position. So the first time she got sick is also my first sleepless night experience with her.

But these past few days, she keeps on whinning at night, and I don't know what's the exact reason. I checeked her but looks like she's not sick naman, like last night. She's a little fuzzy and whinny. We arrived home late last night because we dine-out with hubby's office friends. As expected she's already sleeping when we arrived, When I carried her upstair and lie her down on the bed, she's awake na pala. I told her to gp back to sleep again, usually she's able to sleep back. But this time she didn't, and she suddenly speak;

Jashley: Daddy. Higa. (while pointing on the space on the bed beside her)
Me: Opo, dyan higa si Daddy, wait mo lang nasa baba pa si Daddy.

After a couple of minutes hubby entered the room upon seeing her Daddy she stood up and went to her Daddy.

Daddy: Bakit nagising ka na? late na, sleep na ulit. (While putting her back into bed)
Jashley: Dito. Higa.
Daddy: Opo, Higa na si Daddy, sleep ka na din.

She then burried her face into her pillow, matagal-tagal din so I thought she's already sleeping na. Until I heard her soft cries, I pat her gently while telling her that there's nothing to worry because Mommy is here. She stopped for a while then she whine again and keeps on turning and turning. I asked her if she wants milk, she said "milk" so I gave her milk. After that di padin natulog she wants to play daw, kaso ako naman sobrang antok na. I let her watch on my phone nalang her favorite mickey mouse clubhouse so I can sleep, kaso everytime the video ends or she accidentaly press the home button of the phone, she will wake me up and ask me to resume the video. She keeps on waking me also to tell me whatever was seeing on the screen, like she's explaining to me what is happening there, for example "Mommy...dog...awww-awww-awww" (while pluto is barking), or "Mommy...mouse...dance" (because mickey mouse is dancing). Kahit na antok na antok na ko I try to respond parin, so she won't feel that I ignore what she was saying.

Anyways, around 4am nagisingan ko nlang she's already sleeping na and then the phone was on my hand, I don't know how it happened, I just remember that I tried taking the phone from her one time and asked her to sleep na but she said "no, ayaw" so I let her continue watching. Maybe I tried it again then she let me and she sleeps na. Ayun para tuloy akong zombie sa office kinabukasan sa sobrang puyat.

There are times na 3 consecutive days siyang ganyan, we're taking turns nalang ni hubby so one can fully rest kahit papaano. Several times hubby wasn't able to come to office due to his headache cause of lack of sleep.

There is also this instance that we are sleeping on the living room, we arrive home late also that time so inorder to not wake her up we decided not to transfer her upstair and just sleep there nalang din. Around 1 am she wawkes up crying and keeps pointing at the door through the dirty kitchen while saying "dayaw" which we don't know the meaning. We offer her milk, to watch, to play but she refuse it all. She still keeps on pointing at the door, I ask her if she wants to go to Mama's (MIL) house, by the way my in-laws house and our house is just right beside each other and connected through the dirty kitchen at the back.

When I asked her if she wants to go to mama, she replied "Mama", so hubby then called Mama, but when Mama is getting her from me, mas lalo pa sya umiyak and again point to the door while shouting "dayaw" again. Hubby said maybe she wanted to go to my in-laws house so we brought her there but after getting to my in-laws house she again points back to the dirty kitchen outside. around 5 times we've been going back and forth to our house and my in-laws house. When we were inside the house, she will say "dayaw" while pointing outside but when we're outside she will say "house" while pointing naman on either our house or my in-laws house, the weird thing is she will stop crying while we're passing through the dirty kitchen. It's a little creepy but as much as possible I don't want to entertain that idea. When she finally stops crying hubby and I pray and ask God's protection.

How about you Moms out there? What are your puyat moments with your babies?.

Kwentong Libag

No, it's not what you think, I won't make kwento about libag. So this is my real kwento all about. When hubby and I arrived home last night my Jashley is running towards us and do her usual routine of kissing and make "mano" to me and her Daddy (she does this whenever we arrive home). After that she told me "Mommy...Read...Books", I replied "Ok baby, what do you want Mommy to read for you?, she then replied "Li-ba-bag". I was like what?!! what does she mean by libabag? I'm waiting for someone at home to help me decipher what does it mean, but it seems that no one knows too. So I ask her "what is libabag baby?", she then show me the book that I recently bought for her and answered "libag" while pointing on the book cover. Ayun naman pala it means Ladybug, this ladybug Sleepover book that I gave her the other day. Buti na lang so smart ang baby ko that she was able to explain what does she mean by showing me these book (Which by the way I bought at national bookstore for only 59php each. So cheap!). 

I corrected her pronunciation many times but still "Li-li-bag" padin ang nasasabi nya. Anyway it's ok baby ma-perfect mo din yan next time. Always remember that Mommy will not get tired understanding you until you are able to converse fully na. 

As of now though you were able to repeat na every single word we were asking you to say, you were still confuse between C/K & T and M & N. Here are some examples:

No more = Mo More

Kain = Tain

Carry = Terry

But still you are doing a great job baby. I love you so much.

-♥♥♥-

11 & 12 months milestone

11 months
- Can take more than 2 steps, but still woobly.
- Can give a hug.
- Can do tricks such as "peek-a-boo".
- Can point some body parts such as nose, eyes, ears, tongue
- Imitates what people do.
- She can now entertain herself a little longer than before by playing or flipping books by her own.
- Can now sleep by herself.

12 months (1 year)
- Can now balance herself & walk longer
- Knows the use of comb & spoon.
- Can give both hug & kiss (depends on her mood)
- Able to perform some action songs such as "read your bible" & "sit down, sit down".
- Can tidy up her toys/things.
- Can ask her to pass/get something for you.
- Able to put cap on her head.
- Start trying to feed herself with spoon.
- Knows how to tug you to place she want to go.
- Knows what she wants and gesture or point to show you.
- Able to hold out her arms for sleeve or her foot for a shoe when dressing.
- Know how to spit out the water when brushing her teeth. (No one actually teach her, I guess she just saw it everytime I brush my teeth.)
- She knows when Mommy or Daddy is mad at her because of her being "makulit", she will cry at first and will hug you as if she's saying sorry to you.
- Can say some words such as, "yes", "no", "wait", "orange".
- She can say the letters "A", "C", "E", "S". She's not responding on other letters whenever I ask her to say it.

My little girl is such a smart baby, she always surprise us with new things She's now able to do. I know how excited She is in exploring everything around her, and we're also excited as well.

-♥♥♥-

Our baby's milestone

Though I'm keeping a notes of my JyellaBear's monthly Milestones, I might as well share it with you here incase I lost my copy.

0 month old
- I don’t know if smiling can be considered as milestone, but she were just few days old when we saw her first smile, though we know that this is just a random smile, for Daddy & Mommy this is of course a big thing.
- Kicking is her favorite past time.
- Starting to lift her head.

1 month old
- She already have a good sense of sight, she's now responding by smiling when she see someone, usually in the morning when you greet her good morning.
- She stared to have interest in watching.
- When taking her a photo or a video, She's curiously looking on the camera.
- She also have a good sense of hearing at 1 month, she turns towards familiar voices or sounds. That's why whenever Daddy came home from work and she were already sleeping, I won't allow him to talk loudly because the moment she hear his voice she will open your eyes and I need to put her on sleep again.
- She can lift her head forward while holding her hands and gently pulling forward.

2 months old
- She can hold her head up for a short period of time.
- She is imitating us when we are sticking out our tongue.
- She randomly talking or rather shouting words like ooh's and ahh's...
- She is attracted on colourful things, such as toys or pictures. Especially color yellow.

3 months old
- She's now able to hold her head steadily.
- When she saw someone eating, she also move her lips as if she were eating too.
- She's now trying to roll from back to front though she always end up crying because she cannot do it yet.
- She now know her name, she turns her head towards someone calling her name.
- She attentively watchs TV.
- She smiles more frequently.
- We started practice tummy time, though she usually cry when I started putting her on her tummy.
- She now know how to put her fingers on her mouth and start licking them. And now prefer her fingers more than her pacifier.
- The sound of a motorcycle engine will stop her from crying.

4 months old
- The first time we hear the sweetest sound we ever heard. Her laughter.
- She now learn how to grab things.
- She's now learning to hold her feeding bottle by herself.
- Aside from licking her finger, she also loves to lick her toes.
- She's now able to roll from front to back.
- She smiles back whenever we smile at her.
- She can now sit down with full support
- She wakes up Mommy & Daddy in the morning by babbling random words.
- She will put anything she can grab on her mouth.
- She reach for food when she see someone is eating.
- She's now interacts in playing.
- She can stand for a short time with full support.

5 months old
- She can now sits down with a minimal support.
- She's now able to roll from front to back and back to front.
- She can drink on a regular glass.
- She loves pouting her lips.
- She can now stand longer with full support.

6 months old
- She's now able to roll back & forth faster
- She started eating solid foods.
- She's now standing with a minimal support and started to take a few steps.
- Her first teeth are starting to show up.
- She reach out when she wanted to be carried.
- She's now reacts on a program she's watching. She laughs, giggles, shouts, dance, clap her hands, and stomps her feet.

7 months old
- She's now able to walk with walker or by holding her hands.
- She knows some tricks like "clap your hands" and "close, open".
- She now have 2 teeth on her lower front gum.
- She can sit down without support.
- She's now standing on her own while grabbing onto something.
- She's now on "nangingilala" stage. Most of the times she only want either me or her lola to carry her. But when she's in hergood mood she will allow her daddy and her lolo to carry her.

8 month old
- She can now crawl, though it’s a scoot type of crawling.
- She can now recognize names of people and pets as well.
- She love dogs and cats, when she see them on streets she will look at them and say "whooo" as if she were calling them. One time while we were outside the house and she's eatingbiscuit, she accidentally drop the biscuit and a cat ate it. So I give her another piece, but when she saw that the cat were about to leave because she already finished eating the biscuit that has dropped, she happily throw another biscuit to the ground for the cat to eat it again,
- She's learning to pull herrself up to stand though she's still a little wobbly and still needs a little push from Mommy or Daddy.
- She can now understand some commands like "opps thats bad or stop it" and "come on, let’s go".
- Says mamamama & dadada randomly.
- Learns another trick, the "give me high five or apir"

9 months
- She can now do tricks such as clapping, align, apir/high five, close-open.
- She's pointing towards things she want.
- She now master the pincer grasp.
- Already allowed to eat/taste almost any food except egg which her pedia prohibited until she reach 1 year old.
- She can now crawl on fours.
- Loves french fries a lot but since it's not good for her we have to control her fries intake.
- She also love the apple medley/apple banana/apple mango sauce snack that I bought for her, before 1 sachet can last her for 2 days, now 1 sachet a day is not enough for her.
- Walking while someone assist her.
- Can climb up the stairs.
- She love books more than her toys, whenever I put her in her play area where her toys and books are scattered, She will always grab a book first.
- She love TV commercials especialy those who has kids as commercial model.
- She always dance whenever she hears music, even the sound of the piano in church and her musical rhymes in her toys can make her rock her body.
 - She loves Mommy so much, whenever she see me I always got a big smile from her. And when I'm home on weekends/holiday she won't let go of me, if I pass her on her Lolo & Lola even on her Daddy she will start crying.
- She likes cats and dogs. She gets stunned with cats “meows” and she “talks” to dogs. Whenever she see dogs she usually says "bawo" while reaching her hands towards the dog as if she's saying "come here".
- She call me "Mamamama" and her Daddy "Ade".
- She call her Lola "Uwa" and Lolo "Owo"
- She love to stay outside.
- She intentionally dropped whatever object/toy she were holding.
- Always shout “AH!” loudly.
- She always pull herself up to sitting position the moment she wakes up.
- She can stand and sits down while holding/grabbing unto something.
- She can walk holding on to railings/furniture, shifting one hand from the other.
- She can associate words with action: Say frog (our ref magnet) and she looks at the frog, same for dog, cat, lizard (usually at the ceiling) and fish.
- She just had her first carousel experience (thanks to momsie & papsie).

10 months
- She really love the stairs, when I put her down on the floor, she will quickly crawl towards the stairs and will climb up. The crazy thing is, she's not using her knees to climb up, instead she's setting her foot on the steps of the stairs.
- We call her little "daldalita" because she's now so noisy, She  keep on babbling words we cannot understand.
- I think she is now on an emotional stage called "separation anxiety", She's now gettting upset and cry whenever I leave home for work, or when I put her down on her crib and will leave the room.
- Can do tricks such as "show your tongue", "flying kiss", "wave goodbye", "dance".
- She now have 3 teeth on her upper gums, and another 3 on lower gums.
- She now know how to bite foods.
- She know how to swipe her forefinger in playing candy crush while Daddy is holding her hand to help her in which candies she need to switch.
- She can walk alone while pushing a plastic chair (our improvised push along walker).
- She love water so much, she enjoys playing with water more than playing with your toys.
- 3 days before she turned 11 months, she can already stand on her own for 10 seconds maximum without holding on anything.
- The next day, she was able to do atleast 1-2 steps before falling down.
My dear baby every month you never fail to amaze us with every Milestone you achieved, always remember that Daddy & Mommy is always here in every step of your life! But please don't grow up too fast Mommy still enjoying everything on you.

-♥♥♥-

Who is Jashley Bear?

Jashley is our little princess first name, but i usually call her Jashley Bear because she is huggable as a bear. =)

Our Jashley was born October last year, as of this writing she's now on her 11th month. I gave birth to her via C-section due to minor condition on my part. She is our first child and a honeymoon baby when we got married February last year. She is surely Daddy and Mommy's blessing from above.

-♥♥♥-